New, Scared... this is all new to me
Well what to say? The most I ever did in my life was smoked some stuff a handfull of times in my life. Things have happened in the last few years that have changed my way of thinking and I've done things I would never want my family to know about. Yes, I've got kids that look up to me, a family that always thought I never did any wrong (they were shocked to see me smoke a cigarette!), and I've got a very professional job that would be ended with my licensed pulled if word ever got out. So it's so hard for me to seek help. Yes, I admit I'm to the point I need help. The world is so unforgiving that if I made an admission to all I've done, they'd rather see me punished than see me get help. But I know generally others who have been there are more understanding. This is my first step towards getting any sort of help and I want to try it here. Here of all places in the world.