Public holiday here today
Anzac day which is to commemorate the New Zealand and Australian soliders who have fallen fighting (world wars, Vietnam etc).
Day of celebration and for many, bbqs and drinking!
The weather is fine and I've noticed a lot of AV activity today. Lots of suggestions RE buying a bottle of wine and drinking this afternoon.
You've earned it, you've packed up your whole apartment (husband and i are shifting) He would like you to drink with him tonight (my husband)
I recognised this for what it is - I'm not sick or deranged and I dont have a disease, in fact I'm quite well.
The fact the AV is so strong today is not good or bad and just illustrates that i'm healthy and well and enjoying life and my Beast wants the pure PLEASURE that alcohol that brings.
But I dont drink.
Rereading the book again and up to the bit about the Beast that comes back. How the Beast will never accept that I'm not going to drink.
It sure is squirming today