For me, I tried several times to get clean. I was tired of spending the money, tired of dealing with my Dr., the pharmacy, etc... My husband made me stop, twice. This last time, which I am only day 15 clean, I CHOSE this for myself. I have NO desire to go back to that (except for the tricks my brain is playing on me, telling me my pain is worse than it is!) I set a date for myself, about a month out... and I don't recomend THIS, but I used what i wanted, when I wanted. I know that can be dangerous, but I knew my limits. It got bad and it got worse, but having a quit day in mind did help.. a lot. and i have no doubt this is my LAST withdrawal. I am never doing this again!!!!! Just get back on that wagon. We have NA here, but I really don't want to go... I'm way too ashamed to show my face in a public place openly like that. I agree to get a book. Best of luck to you.