Hi ohwhattheheck - welcome
Have you tried cutting down yet?
If you're a drinker like me, cutting down is an exercise in futility...
I was a musician too - my self image was bound up in drinking and drugging - I lost my career, my talent, my creativity and nearly my life because I couldn't give up getting wasted.
If you find, like I did, that you can't cut down, be smarter than I was and accept the reality WTH...
I'm glad I did - I had to make a lot of changes but my life is awesome now - and I'm playing & writing again
you'll find a lot of support here...
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