Wow!!!! This was written in 2005!
I was on this forum and would get advice a long, long time ago. I could not remember to save my life what "name" was. I finally found it. I wrote this in 2005....Seven years ago. Unbelievable what we go thru and the years just pass on by. It gives me chills reading what I wrote.
I feel Insane, Help
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Ive been married for 20 years now. 2 kids (teenagers). Also, have been reading what people have posted. Its sooo hard to detach yourself from someone who is an alcoholic. My husband's drinking starting right off, 1985. and it has escalated to strong binges every 2 weeks. He has stomach problems (big time), He lives on Nexium, he has been tested (liver) which is fine. He drinks a 5th of Vodka a day when he binges. Then when he quits, its days of withdrawals. We have no money, he goes from job to job, he has had a DUI, he has a real "jerk" of a friend that he always goes over to his house and leaves me home alone. I think that is because he feels more comfortable and he doesnt have to hide when he is over there. He is a real smart butt and "cocky" and tries to start fights. He calls me names all the time. He "belittles" me. How do you ignore that? Ive been kicked out of the house when I was Pregnant, Ive been pissed on while Iam asleep, Ive been cheated on, he takes money out of the bank and dont write it down. He wanted to kill himself a few months ago, had a gun to his head. Took him to the emergency room twice in 6 months this year. Is he in the Insane Stage of Alcoholism because I read here in this forum that its either Jail, Insane, or death. He has been in jail before, Ive called the sheriff on him. This is crazy, when he is sober, he is a great guy. My family thinks Iam nuts. I want to leave. To be honest, it scares me and I dont know why because I know it will be so much more relaxing for me and the kids if he is gone.
What are the "Tools" to help manage yourself through this?