I suggest going to some AA meetings, Kelly. Lots of great people and excellent stories. Remember, it is anonomyous. What is heard, who is seen, does not pass beyond those walls. Pouring out that booze is a good first step but a first step is meaningless unless it is followed by subsequent steps in the right direction. Keep moving forward because if you don't you will surely fall back. Sorry if i sound like a downer, i just want you to really jump start your recovery. You're worth every effort!