Anyone being faced with the reality that their addiction needs to be conquered and will possibly cease using is going to be scared. Sounds to me like you have a very good support system and most people do not have the source of help like you. A lot of people would quit if they had someone willing to pay for their detox and rehab.....sounds to me like you should take advantage of such a great support and assistance.....you've got nothing to lose but your addiction to drugs. Good luck.