Hello, kayelle, Welcome to SR!
I'm glad to hear you have been doing so much reading. It really began to bring a little sanity into my own life when I started reading here!
I wish I could tell you that love is enough. Sadly, we are simply not that powerful. As another moderator says "If love were enough to cure addiction, none of us would be here".
Originally Posted by kayellelove4
I want to have a family so bad. I keep telling myself that he is the perfect person for me when he's sober, and he might be. But it's like I'm in a relationship with two different people at the moment...and the drunk one I wouldn't trust around my kids!
The problem is, you
are not in a relationship with 2 different people. If you accept him, you have to take him as he is right now. Is his behavior acceptable? It certainly doesn't sound as though he would be a capable, responsible husband or father to me.
I hope you will stick around, keep reading, and believe that you deserve so much better treatment.
Welcome again! HG