I just sent my counselor an email telling her I'm ready to hear about the sober living she found for me. She will call me first thing tomorrow. I'm not going to let my issues keep me from going, I just don't like to feel stupid and I usually feel stupid. I don't tell anyone about my sleeping habits and why I have them ever. Its funny that I tell all here; this is only place I'm just me. If you knew me in everyday life, you wouldnt recognize me. I don't recognize me, the fake me performs and I feel like I'm losing my real self so this forum has helped a lot even though I'm constantly saying help me, you all already have. Hopefully in a week or two I'll be in the sober living and getting some control back. I'm not afraid but I am self conscious. I don't know that I'll ever like myself but maybe I'll learn to give myself a break now and then.