Honestly, I want to go and this isn't me making excuses but I have a hard time being comfortable around anyone. I'm so depressed that I hate having people concerned for my well being. I won't be able to relax I know I'll be tense and feel stupid. The biggest issue is sleeping there. I have a history of sexual assault and while I'm not in need of help for it, it does effect how I sleep. I cannot sleep in a bed even at my house and I sleep fully dressed. Ill end u sleeping in a closet like a freak. Plus when I stop using, the nightmares return and I don't want to be screaming in some house like a crazy person. These things are normal to me and don't bother me unless I'm not alone.