Thank you all for your support. What a cycle this is. I have antiseizure medication on hand which is all they will do for me plus I will just embarrass myself when I am known as that girl who was hit by the car a few months ago drunk.. who drank tonight. I think I will try and stick this one out at home. We actually don't have a taxi service in this small town, the panic is the thing that bugs me most. I have been thru withdrawal. Seen faces and everything. At least this time I have this webpage.