Step one was easy for me, there was no question in my mind.
One step of only twelve, they all have their challenges.
Remember that we deal with whatever it was we are dealing with, and it is cunning, baffling and powerful. It can and will use those feelings of unhappiness to get you back in
that saddle again.
It does get better, the promises can and do come true.
“If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us — sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.”
Page 83-84 Alcoholics Anonymous~
You are probably right where you need to be.
I'm praying for you, and I know you can find the happiness.
