Sorry to hear this Bruno but well done for coming here and being honest. If no one at home knows how this is affecting you it's great that you can come here and have a record of this so it doesn't end up being a slide back into drinking. Did you intend to drink before you went to the pub? What led you to having a drink?
Btw, love this:
Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
That said, don't think that relapse is just part of recovery. It's not. Relapse is part of active addiction.
I just read an article that said relapse
is a part of recovery and it depressed the hell out of me. I'm terrified of drinking now and am really hoping I stay that way!
Keep drinking the tea Bruno
x