My drinking resulted in my work being haphazard. That's really the best word for it. Things were just barely done. Barely on time, low/running out of what we needed to do business, tax papers not correctly handled, things just hanging by a thread. The last couple years I usually had alcohol in my system at work at the very least, and drinking at work a lot. On the way to work for sure, & usually a couple before I had to really deal with people. Plus I looked like hell a lot at work. Fat, red face, more than once a week no shower/ugly hat day because I was too sick to get ready. How awful. I remember being so sick in the bathroom at work and knowing people could probably hear me. God, I'm thankful to be sober.