I agreee about the womens meetings, they are awesome, and a lot of fun too. And you're not a failure, you just had a relapse thats all. We all have them. That is just a reminder to yourself of what not to try next time.
I had 50 days once and I thought I could drink again, found myself plastered and almost killed myself falling down some stairs. Lesson learned: I cannot ever safely use alcohol in any form at all.