I suppose if my little married family of
25 yrs that I left behind would see me
now, id think they would be greatly
surprised at me.
Be careful at what you wish for because
more than likely you will recieve it like I
did yrs ago. I had wished to be an at home
mom and wife and was for 25 yrs. 7 yrs
of that I was into my alcoholism which
never seemed to interfere with motherly
and wifely duties until my addiction to
it hit a brick wall and I a concrete culvert
sitting on top the ground a few months
before downing a hand full of pills.
Family intervention took place in which
i went into recovery. That was 21 yrs ago.
I tried to enjoy family activities and always
seemed discontent. The only escape I had
was in a bottle late at nite after family went
to sleep.
After i enter recovery, my life began to change
leaving my little family wondering what was
happening to me, but never stopping them
in their own quest for lifes new experiences.
My little family grew going in one direction
as my recovery life went the other way. We
never seemed to be on the same plain with
each other which was sad.
My 25 yr marriage ended as I had wished
for so many years to return home where I
grew up and had my recovery roots in.
Family saw me as the mom, wife who stayed
home, baked, worked my recovery program
and whinned about being unhappy.
Today, after moving home 6 yrs ago, i remarried,
got my motorcycle endorsement after taking a
the motorcycle class, have many lovely vibrant
tattoos, piercings, a lovely home with gardens
Ive been tending to, swimming, watching many
birds that come to feed on the many pretty red
feeders, hummingbirds are on their way, mentally,
physically, emotionally, spiritually fullfilled and
happy.
Life by no means is over at 50ish with 21 yrs of
many one days at a time added together sober
to get me where I am today. In fact, we cant wait
till august to get here because we r taking another
bike trip and returning to Sturgis for the second time.
To ride on our triked out Road King is totally
exillerating and free. To ride in the open air, the
sun and wind on our faces and shoulders is truely
enjoyable.
Like I said, i doubt my family knows really how
happy I am today. Everything I do today is a
gift and reward in recovery and none would be
possible if i were still living in a bottle. I wouldnt
be living but rather Id be dead. Because that
was exactly where I was when family stepped
in to help me when i could no longer help
myself.
Sober life is simple and quiet for me and I love
it..!!!