I'm going to write it all down (some of it I have). As I just found a post on another board from 2 and a half years ago that involved me drinking an old bottle of sherry.
And if someone had said to me today "Would you drink old sherry after you've finished your favourite tipple?"
I would have laughed and said "no way". I'd genuinely blanked it out. I'm going to start that journal again (and keep posting on my other board and here.. and AA meetings.. and my friend who supports me... I'm fighting back this time).