So hesitant to get rid of the rest of the pot I have.
It's that fear of having to shut the door completely...... Unless we do, though, we're going to keep coming back to the same place (and worse).
I didn't want to be sober until I had several months of sobriety. It took a while to get some perspective on it. I'd stopped looking for happiness in life (or in myself) and was settling for a couple hours of poisoning my brain instead. At the time, though, I didn't think I'd ever be able to give it up. I'd listened to the addiction for so long.......
You just have to make up your mind, I think....... the help is already there.:ghug3