Not like I'm ever going to make something of myself.
You have two kids, and a third on the way. You're battling addiction, and from what you've said, the tide has been turning in your favor these last couple years. You've made something of yourself already. And once you kick the pills for good, you will have made something even better of yourself.
Don't put yourself down, Niki. Your addiction and bouts with depression will do enough of that. I feel like the fact I overcame addiction makes me a better parent, not a lesser one. Even if that's not true, the fact remains that I'm sober, and love my daughter more than anything in the world. And that makes my kid—and your kids—luckier than many others.
Hang in there. You absolutely, positively can overcome this.
