Isnt it strange that we always want what we cant have? I knew i needed to leave my ex even though I LOVED HIM SO MUCH, i would have married him in a heartbeat if he would of been sober. He couldnt do that I told me my expectations where to high, all i asked was for him to respect me, love me, want to do things with me and be sober. This was to much. As soon as I left him, i took him back to work on it....then as soon as he left me and told me he found somone else, my mind went into OBSSESIVE mood and all i could do was try to find ways to win him back...but then he didnt want me and didnt love me anymore cuz i didnt fight for him lol. I cant belive i put up with this ****....SO TIRED of being depressed.