love, feel the feelings...its all HEALTHY...and remember YOU ARE GRIEVING, this is what it feels like...
no more dates...you are not ready, cant you see that?...its time for SELF CARE
are you going to AL ANON meetings...even though you are not with him anymore, i would still go...i am after my A/NA left me 2 years...and things in my life has come so clearier!! trust me on that....
how about reading the literature on AA and AL ANON and CO DEPENDENCY? good reads to start...
i have been there too...it take patience within oneself....