Originally Posted by Dominica2

I am so stupid. SO SO STUPID!!!! I WAS on day 20. WAS. I relapsed. I drank a 6 pack. What the hell is wrong with me? I went through all that struggle for what? To prove how ignorant I am?? It's not like I got wasted, but I feel like all the hard work I put in was just wasted ********. I am so mad I want to cry. I am such a hypocrite. Sitting here, being happy to be sober and then, SNAP! I get this wild hair up my ass and I relapse. Pathetic. I don't know what else to say but I am sorry. AA taught me to be honest. So, I am to the best of my ability. Even though I feel like I want to dig a hole and die. A kick back to reality, as every time. Why the hell cant I just be normal like everyone else?? My AV apparently won this round. GOD I am so F*$*N# stupid. I am sorry everyone. I was really convinced I had beat this. UGH.


Dom