Hi Hardy
what happened with that counsellor - did you see them?
I'm not an American so I don't have a lot of local knowledge but if you feel like you're in danger please call 911 or get yourself to an ER.
There's also a load of readings links and hotline numbers here
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
I really encourage you to read through that material.
I know it's scary but sometimes all of us need to reach out and get some help.
You'll find a lot of support here too among the SR community.
D