Hi Muffin, Even though your situation may seem horrible grey and dismal there is always tommorow. I lived in poverty for years even though there was richness everywhere. This richness can be found with my attitude and begining with the simplist of gratefulness is a great start to move ahead. I began with gratitude for the shoes on my feet and clothes on my back and most importantly sobriety. Today I have a apartment (no rommies) a transportation(with insurance and license) and friends. I wish I had a PARROT. That is so cool. Sad you must pawn that silver but please when you get the cash do not buy booze. It sounds to me that you are really getting into some core issues and that is great progress.
for your mother