Sorry about your mom but you can change that. Even though your 60 years old there is a lot of programs out there to help you out. it's hard to face let go of the pass but if you don't then you will be stood to it. Remember the good times of your mom and move on from it. Life is hard which you already know but you can get through it with a smile. A lot of people do. Stick to it and you can make it. I'm 29 and still have trouble staying sober. It's not fun but I hope I stop it too. Good luck and stay with SR.