I can relate. It was truly a shock for me to realize I had a problem. I considered my willingness to help others to be a virtue, not a sickness!! I think in general it is a good thing...as long as it's in BALANCE and as long as the help you're providing is actually helpful (and with addiction what we normally think of as helpful is actually hurting our loved ones). This is definitely not easy, and I am far from being "cured" but with the help of therapy, SR and f2f meetings I'm starting to get it-- and I feel so much healthier. I highly recommend you find a support group to attend. It's a bit scary at first but it's the best thing I've done for myself and really helps with learning how to deal with an addict.