I dont know how I came about this site...perhaps a search of fellow people?
Background: I started drinking 2.5 years ago, days after my oldest daughter told me that her father (my ex-husband) had been raping her for five years. Never drank before then; someone made me a drink when "our" story was broadcast on the nightly news and I needed to calm my nerves.
Fast forward to now and count all that I have lost because I am an alcoholic:
Children (3)
Home
Vehicle
License
Job
Respect and self-dignity (after a DUI and following probation violation)
Love and support of family and friends
The first and the last are all that really matter to me. My children are under the control of my family, who have, in my opinion, turned their back on me completely. I can't put into words how much this hurts.
I need help. I lost my health insurance with my job. I have to complete a recovery program to even consider getting my kids back. And, even at my age, I feel completely abandoned by my family and friends. I know that people should not be "enablers" but I am desperate
Any advice? (Yes, I went to AA all of last year, all the while stopping at the liquor store following a meeting....)