Sweetie, you can't control what happens with your mom and dad. I turned to drugs because I was so wrapped up in other people's stuff (mainly a bf at the time). I had no clue that it was okay to take care of me! I've been working on that along with my addiction recovery for 5 years.
In those 5 years? I've seen babies born, many, many loved ones die, and some major dysfunction in my own home but I can't fix all that. The best I can do is work MY recovery, reach out when I'm struggling, give back when I can. Doesn't mean I don't LOVE my family, it just means I have to stay out of their stuff. A good friend of mine from here has often reminded me "if you weren't there, the same stuff would be going on" and she's right.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy