God bless you for remaining sober despite your friend's death. My deepest sympathies on your friend's passing. A sponsor should be someone that goes that extra mile for you and is kind and supportive. It doesn't appear that she is being supportive at all. I would find another sponsor that you can trust. It might help to estabish ground rules - how much support she will provide, what her style of sponsorship is and isn't and whether she has a sponsor. Congratulations on 32 days sober!