Dawnie, I know how you feel. I used to "use" any excuse to drink... if I had a bad thing happen... if something really great happened I needed to "celebrate"...
But the end result was that drinking NEVER made the bad things better, and took a lot of the fun out of celebrations.
By drinking you will be giving the social worker more fuel for her fire. Do you really want to add to any list she is compiling against you?
Hoping you can stay sober. (((dawnie)))