Hi. Way to go on day 3. I like what you said about being really conscious of building in a schedule around the time you tend to start drinking. I have found that really helpful as well. I started out with eating disorders at a young age as well and was in therapy from about age 12 -30...so can relate to some of what you seem to be expressing about being resistant to something that feels like more therapy or feeling like you generally have a good handle on your issues but need to make better choices or simply aren't sure what's right for you. Also just the fear of slipping back into eating disorders to maintain control when I'm not drinking. I hope this can be a safe place for you to process your feelings without it being too overwhelming. Take care!