Hi. I had to find a program of recovery to work to get sober. I needed someone to tell me what to do. I needed to see and hear what others did. I of course, thought I was smarter than those that had gotten sober before me and that I could do it my way instead of theirs. Once, I surrendered and started to listen it was alot easier to work towards recovery. I suggest you find some type of recovery program to work and learn from those that have come before you. Sobriety isn't always easy, but I wanted to be sober more than I wanted to drink. I will have 1 year next week because I listened to what others who had been successful in sobriety said. Nothing changes, if nothing changes. Best of luck.