4MyMel, you identified a bunch of nasty stuff that being drunk makes go away. As you are learning, there are at least a couple of problems with this approach.
Maybe you need to 'be with' some of these negative feelings. You don't have to like them, no one likes feeling anxious or depressed, but these feelings provide the stimulus to help us learn and grow. I am working on learning how to accept these feelings, and how not to get too upset about them when they show up.
Being numb to the prickly aspects of life ensures that we miss out on a whole bunch of other great stuff too. For me, I became numb to simple joys and pleasures, things that now contribute so much to my quality of life.
I hope you can find your way to this place too 4MyMel. Keep posting!