I've hit the wall.
I have been off prescription opiates for 57 days. This was my first treatment. I got out of treatment on day 54 and missed the residential and the people there right away. Everything was awesome while I was in treatment. I am back to my job and I am really struggling. I don't want to use but I feel like I am the EXACT same person as I was when I was using but now I am just clean. I go to a meeting every day and have a sponsor. I am just feeling like I am not making progress anymore. Have any of you people with years gone through stages like this? I know I need to do what is suggested to me and start working the steps and doing service work but I am working 8 hours a day and start out patient tomorrow night for 3 hours a night. I am ******* drained by the end of the day. I guess I am just looking for some comfort from others who have been through it.
-kevin