Welcome Hello world!
This is a great place to start, here on SR.
I myself could easily drink a bottle of wine or two a night. I was and I was miserable. Terribly miserable. I felt totally out of control. The depression was horrible and I really hated myself.
I admitted to myself I had a problem and needed help. I had tried twice on my own and failed. I found this site and jumped in head first. I read and post a lot.
Its not easy in the beginning, but it gets easier. Just try. Come here and vent if you need to. Learn all you can. Drink lots of tea...hot tea is the only thing that helped me get through some cravings.
Glad you have joined us!