I am having a bad Friday too and I am glad to see you are better.
I have had a string of 7 day work weeks for months and will have a few more in the upcoming weeks. Tomorrow and Sunday are free and that is when I think of using. As long as I am working or have social obligations I never think of it and then some free time comes and the idea hits again.
Usually I call someone and plan to meet for lunch the next day and that gets rid of the cravings. But everyone I usually ask is busy this weekend--so I am on my own. I guess it is bad to depend on others to stay clean for just this reason. They are not always there.
I am glad I can be honest about this here. If I said any of this in a 12-step meeting I would be yelled at and if I said anything to a friend while in the midst of this, I think it would make them panic. Thank goodness for SR.