Awesome! Have you chosen a program of recovery to follow? AVRT, AA, SMART, anything? We can stop for a while, but we often get to a point where we end up in a precarious place. With a program to follow, we have a much greater chance of not picking up and truly staying stopped. I did that for 25 years (stop then start again), today, I feel much stronger and I have a plan of action to follow through with. Scary, but doable!
The reason I asked about a doctor appointment is because you said, "I have read up on everything one should do to quit and what to expect and what kind of damage I am doing and will continue to do if I don't quit." which means you are aware that stopping requires seeing a doctor to discuss withdrawal as it can be deadly."
That was my point in asking.... if you haven't stopped for more than 10 days, withdrawals can hurt us. I'm not sure if you've stopped, yet, but please see a doctor now. I'm glad last year's check-up was good, but what about today?
Stay stopped! It's so much nicer. You can do this.
Hugs,