Try to remember the story of two wolves.... sometimes it brings clarity to me when I have to resolve some time-tested problems.
Each of us has two wolves inside us...one representing the light and the way foward, the other being negativity, self-loathing and hatred. They go to battle.
Q: Which one will win????
A: The one we choose to feed....
We always, always have choices in the way we respond.....be true to yourself and your sober path.