hope, thank you for the update. Change is scary. I know I have a tendancy to create "mental monsters" and cross bridges before I get to them, many that I need never have crossed in the first place! Silly me. Since I have disconnected from my AS, and have more or less gone no contact with him, I find myself at times not quite knowing what to do with myself. I'm having to re-learn how to live a normal life. This normal stuff is hard work after coming from all the simple reacting of drama and chaos!!! (slaps self) While the peace is oh so nice..... at times I catch myself feeling like I'm waiting for the next shoe to drop. And when the phone rings, I still cringe with anxiety. I know it's only been a few weeks, and it's a process, and I have a list of things to do, but I'm struggling with accepting this newfound freedom. Sounds crazy, doesn't it?