I have surrendered completely. Knowing that I am an alcoholic and trying to "cut back" on drinking is just not possible. I realize that now. I want to be "ME" again and i cannot do that with the bottle. I am 34 days into sobreity today and I am starting to get back my emotions and learning to deal with them at that time and how to control my action towards them. I never knew that being sober would make me such a different person on the way I deal with day to day issues but it has made it easier to actually feel happy. I am regaining controll on my life and the direction that I want to take it. I am working hard at life to have an easy life if that makes any sense. I am happy that I found this site it has given me encouragement and stregnth that I never thought I could get anywhere else.