Actually, the thread is 8 years old, but you are new, and your problem and struggles are now, so welcome!
I was addicted to benzos, took them as prescribed for the most part, and wound up in a heap of trouble after a decade of use.
And Dee isn't rude, by the way. He's a site administrator and his posts are filled with compassion and grace. It's very common for people to revitalize old threads with new posts and people jump in just to tell folks how old it is in case others were posting thinking the original poster needed immediate support.
But don't worry. We have all been there and your situation is the one that is important.