I'm scared because I don't think I have hit rock bottom yet.
Today is day 3 sober. Last night I went to my first AA meeting ever and it was an interesting experience. I didn't talk but many others did. They told me their stories and I could relate to them, but it seems that everyone hit a real low in order for them to wake up and get sober. They had lost everything, and I can see if I continued with the drinking how that could be me. But..... I haven't got to that point yet and I'm scared that I might have to in order to stop drinking forever. Right now I am kidding myself that one day I can be a responsible drinker again. It seems that my reasons for drinking are invalid compared to other peoples stories. I didn't start drinking a bottle of wine a day because everything around me was crashing down, I drank because my life seemed to be too good to be true. I have a husband who loves me, we live a very comfortable life financially, I can basically have anthing I want. But yet my drinking got out of hand. How do you explain that?