Hi Twkrssk,
Welcome to SR. You speak the truth my friend. That drug is pure evil, everything about it, everything it turns you into and everything it does to your life and your body. I've been off it for 14 years and it still scares the living cr@p out of me. Everytime I smell something that remotely reminds me of it I just get this awful feeling in my gut, not at first though, but then remembering what that stuff did to my life. I also lost everything and everyone but feel so lucky to have made it back.