I remember feeling the way you do now.....the worst.
Next time you want to drink, try to remember how you feel right now. Worth it? No!
I actually wrote myself a letter about it as soon as I was well enough to pick up a pen.
I wish you would to to the ER....they would be able to give you a sedative or something to calm your stomach and keep you hydrated. Have you tried saltines? They always made my stomach feel better.
This can be the last time you ever have to go through this. Please take care and keep us posted.