At the moment am drinking cream soda and am so happy that its not whiskey or something else that is alcoholic.
Because i know i must get through this with out drinking or drugs
Like you said jocata it will only numb it for a little while and then i would have to deal with it when am sober and am meaning really deal with it with out self injuring or eating disorder behaviors
My mum is really scared and am scared for her and i pray that it will all be ok
But if it isn't i have to be OK for my mum , my sister ,nieces and nephew
because if i fall apart i will be no use to any of them .
I have my husband support and love and i will deal with it at the right time for me to do that .