Originally Posted by
DarkAsylum 
part of me really wants to have a drink but i know that it wont change the out come of my mums results i was on the phone to her and she was talking about getting drunk with my uncle tomorrow if the out come is good
it kinda triggered me in to wanting a drink...
Wanting to drink is a lousy feeling to work through and thinking about doing it only frustrates us all the more. It's good to hear you understand how outside issues can work our insides into a drinking problem.
The worry you have for your mom is sweet and shows you care for others even as you work through your own troubles. You have heart so have courage with your heart. I hope the results show the cancer is in remission or otherwise that the treatment is working.
You posting about this shows you dont want that drink. Sure, the alcoholic want is there, but you also can understand the differences between what you really want and what is bothering you. That is awesome.
You can get through this too. You can.