Wow James, reading that sounded like I was reading something
I wrote.
I too am a business owner. I'm not quite on your level yet (at 27 I have a few years to go
) but I have 2 homes and lot's of nice things.
I didn't recognize my problems for a long time because when I looked at myself I didn't fit the standard stereotype of an alcoholic... I'm functional and successful by day. But by night... bring on the blackouts and everything else that goes with the territory.
Slowly but surely, however, my standing in the community and among friends has suffered because of my drinking, and it started to affect my family as well.
I'm merely 7 days sober, so I can completely relate to how you are feeling.
Stick around, this is a great place... and there's ALWAYS someone online when you need to vent.