Raven, hang in there.
We are here for you. I understand the loneliness. I hid my alcoholism from everyone except my husband. Which that seemed easier than getting sober. Nobody knew what I was going through & I couldn't share except here.
I hope you'll find strength & pray you'll have a quick recovery.
You're doing the right thing for your family.
Your moods will stabilize. Your brain & body needs to heal.
Just give it time.