Welcome BostonJames!
You're not alone - it was hard for me to admit I couldn't stop and kept thinking that it would be different "next time" if I just tried harder. The next morning I would find myself wondering how it happened - AGAIN.
I'm glad you found us..... I was drinking when I made my first post, too. The support here has made all the difference in being able to stay sober. Keep reading and posting!
