Hello, and welcome. Drinking brought me to my knees until I realized I couldn't drink like a normal non-alcoholic drinker.
What works well for me, is to think that first drink through till the end and the pain, misery and anxiety that brought with it.
You'll find lots of support here. Many people find a program, like AA, helps them.
I do hope you can overcome alcohol. Many of us have.
Best to you.